If you are reading this as you were passing by checking out
possible blogs to follow, please, don’t stop reading!
This blog post will be short and straight to the point. And
reading is good for you.
Anyways, I’ve officially graduated from college. Wow, it’s
difficult to see that typed. I graduated from Syracuse University on Mother’s
Day (perfect gift for my mom huh?) with a Bachelor’s in Writing & Rhetoric
and a minor in Public Communications Studies. It was an enjoyable yet tough
ride, but I made it. And in four years, if I might add.
It feels fantastic now that I’m free from studying, but I
feel like I’m in limbo. If you’ve read my old posts, and I hope you have,
you’ll know that my dream is to become a writer/editor at a fashion magazine
and pursue my dreams of becoming editor-in-chief of VOGUE. Obviously, I’m so
very short on internships and networkings to even get a job as a janitor in
their office. I’m not even close to being a receptionist there. I know I’m
being completely negative here but in this day and age I have to be honest.
There are thousands of women my age trying to make it in this industry who have
prepared themselves since they could pick their outfits in the morning to fit
in the fashion industry. I need to be realistic and my reality senses are
telling me that my dreams aren’t going to happen.
At least not right away.
First thing I need to do is work harder than these prepared
women. They are my competition! I’m competing against these women every single
day and I’m losing. I still have no job, no internship, no apartment in NYC,
and 0 experience in the fashion industry. I’m currently living at home with my
mom and it’s comfortable, you know, I’m not going to deny. BUT IT SUCKS! Yes, I
have the beach near by. Yes, I can watch Netflix all day. Yes, I can sleep-in.
And yes, I don’t have to pay anything. But I feel so irresponsible and way too
dependent. I even feel embarrassed! I admit it’s probably because I’ve been so
lazy for the past four years, but it’s hard. Applying for internships or jobs
is intimidating. Especially for a girl who is probably suffering from anxiety
(not diagnosed) and was too shy to ever speak in class half the time because
she thought she would say something stupid. Don’t get me wrong. I’m pretty
smart but going to college with smarter students surrounding you in every class
was threatening.
I’m not going into much detail about this, for now. What I’m
trying to say here is that I’m not perfect and I may not yet be ready to get
the job of my dreams but I’m sure as hell going to get there. And I’m going to
work even harder for it!
Now, how do I plan to do that? Starting from today you will
be reading more about me. I will be posting an article every day from now on. I
have no excuses. All the posts will vary. Some will be long pieces like this
one and others will just be photos of my day. But rest assured: all my posts
will be the honest truth. I’m no longer that small little girl living in
LaLaLand with big dreams. I am now a woman living in the real world with
realistic plans.
Let’s start making this happen!
#1 Plan: Actually become a woman.
Let’s see how that goes. Stay tuned for some more real
content. (Sorry, this post ended up being longer than I’d hoped).
Thanks for reading…
Love,
GIRL21
P.S. I’m now 22…I might change my blog name soon! Any suggestions
would be appreciated.
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